Julia Winter, Parade, canvases, trousers, paint
Last weekend I went to the Cheltenham museum art gallery which has newly reopened. A lot of glass – panels on the staircase which gave my dad and I a sense of vertigo! I’m fine with natural heights like trees but I have this real fear with man-made heights. It’s strange and always leads to a dream where I drop down some stairs or keep tripping. And a lot of glass art. Hmm I wasn’t too keen, kind of reminded me of those paper weights you buy in crappy gift shops people always seem to get last-minute presents in. There was a nice piece which took up a whole wall with blue lines which, as you look closer, represent all the rivers in the world. Another interesting thing was a projected film clip showing fabric floating from a large balloon inside and every so often would glitch. There wasn’t particularly much to see but on the way out, grabbed a booklet one page caught my eye, something very pleasing about the distinct pencil marks and use of negative space (drawings above by Felicity Warbrick)
This week we’ve been doing our speeches in English and I always seem to get so worked up about things. Everyone’s obviously being so good, leaving me feeling uncomfortable. I also find it uncomfortable talking about things that I am strongly passionate about. It’s as if people will get the wrong end of the stick/interoperate what i say in the wrong way. but it went ok and now i have to change the speech into an article over half term.
Before half term i usually write a list of things i want to do and within the list, a list of things i want to do on a particular day. And the majority of time I don’t follow this. I have lazy days and a few days hitting the town (haha). Although this half term i will actually do some meaningful things purely because it’s an escape from working so hard. This is interesting though because a few people made their English speeches about how awful homework is and how depressing it is that the first thing your parents say when you get in is ‘Have got any homework?’ People were also saying, outside the 7 hours we spend at school, we should have free time to do what we enjoy, have fun, experiment… and then all these facts and figures about how homework affects sleep and how sleep affects performance in school… all very true and accurate. So i think with just having a week off i will have to make the most of it and i will have to enjoy things more because i know things will be a whole lot more of a struggle when we go back (science isa exam, art (so time consuming) and product design project etc etc)
Recently i have been making extra effort to read, something which i used to do so often but now feel like we’re slowly breaking apart. But i do love to read especially before bed. Then I know that as I drift off to sleep I’ll suddenly have to click my iPod on, be shocked by the light, squint and find ‘notes’ so i can type all these random ideas and creations and designs (sometimes I’ll even have to bend down to reach my diary to scribble down thoughts and quick drawings) I don’t know why it happens but i blame it on books.
This evening I am having one of those long and dazed thoughts where you reminisce everything that’s happened today which normally means speaking your feelings to people close to me and possibly people i don’t know (if you’re reading this right now!) I kind of compare the negatives with the positives and think of things which are happening in the near future and things i hope to happen…
there is something magical about rain that makes you feel safe and comforted. it’s so simple. if you take science out of it, rain and sun are the simplest things we have because they’re almost the first things we learn about – the weather. something that’s always there but always changing. but with rain there is something more powerful, a sort of force that lets you witness from inside only. indoors where you are meant to feel protected. and only revealing part of itself when you watch the drips pat on the window and then slide down the glass. or the fresh smell it leaves after the skies have cleared. so that’s what it is? it’s fresh. it has it’s hold on you for some time and then it leaves you and you feel fresh. and tomorrow when i wake up i’ll feel fresh because the rain will leave me and i will leave it. ..until next time;)
these photos are by marili Andre
something out of many things that occurred today
and my mum went to the dentist this morning
Naomi campbell and Lindsey wixson by Sebastian faena